放弃与坚持的一线之差。。。

当很想放弃时，就会回想起这一路走来自己是如何坚持到现在的。。。在这两年又三个月的大学生活，经历了很多，哭了很多，生病了很多次，失望了很多，也开心过，也笑过。每次都告诉自己只要再撑多一下就好了，就这样撑着撑着也过了两年。所以没什么是不可能的，只有你肯不肯和要不要。这一次也要和自己说：“陈瑜观！在撑多几天吧！你都撑了两年，不在乎多撑那几天！加油吧！

无聊的我。。

其实我并不知道要写些什么，只是不懂为何今天就特别想来这里写写心情。最近除了考试，还是考试。 下星期更惨，有四个小考！觉得这学期自己又变了，尤其是对考试的态度。从以前总让考试弄得整天精神紧绷的自己，变到现在对考试吊儿郎当的自己。太过紧张也不好，太过放松也不好。凡事都要适量就好，太过了，无论过多或少都会有反效果。
读书的心，我一定会在大考前把你找回的。因为我知道我不可以成绩跌，更不能让自己后悔！
p.s: 你知道吗？我一直在等你。从希望到失望，都一直在盲目的等你。希望有天你能看见在你身后的我。

Year 2的生活点滴

不知过了多久没更新了，每次打开了却无写下字来就关了它。或许我懒，也或许我无法用文字来抒发自己情绪。
悲观的我依然还是那么悲观，软弱的我依然如此软弱，胆小的我依然如此胆小，懒惰的我依然如此懒惰，什么也没变。。。所以很糟糕！
Year 2从一开始就害怕它的到来，如今在与它交战中，让我遍体鳞伤，泪流满面。日程表上面满满的考试，报告和presentation，让我看了满是压力和害怕。压力不能造成我的推动力，它只会当了我的绊脚石。无论如何，都要越过这些困难顺利毕业。虽然我知道这次的成绩会让我的cgpa下跌，但我还是会努力去尝试去维持它。。

顺便提起上个月参加UTAR BSS举办的露营。昨天和她聊起，我们都说再给一次机会的话，我们都选择不去。当事者才会知道是什么一回事。但不是因为我在那生病的原因，生病那件事只是让我觉得遗憾，毕竟那是我第一次在大学参加的露营，本来还很期待的说，谁也没想到会演变成这样。透过这件事，我会更认真地去照顾好我宝贝的胃，不要乱乱喝来历不明的水，可是当时真的渴得不行。还有要学会与人沟通，当时很多次想叫人带我出去，却说不出口，所以呆呆的一个人呆在床上几个小时，又无法表达自己想要的。其实我没我的布布是很难睡好的，结果一夜难眠，却不好意思叫人帮我拿，脸皮薄的后果。。也觉得对那些committee很不好意，麻烦了大家，而我还很过分的再回之前没向他们说声谢谢。

人要不断的经历，不断地考验，才学会成长。。。

CNY

This year is a very first time we had our reunion dinner at outside which located in Teluk intan named 渔村，not a really famous restauran in town. But ,we had no choice because we decided too late,most of the restaurant is fully booked,so end up at this restaurant. The dinner started at 6.30pm, but we reached there about 7.15 pm. OMG....at that time,two dishes ad cum out,so everybody start saying that is better to have steamboat at home instead of having dinner at outside.In addition,the dishes is not really tasty and is not warm and we still need wait  abt  an hour for 1 dish to cum out,WTH !!!!
 Fyi ,here is my outfit for that day reunion dinner.

then,nothing much happen in chu yi,just eat and gambling...haha Because we all dissatisfied with the reunion dinner so everyone agree to have steamboat for chu yi's night.So, i accompany my aunty go teluk intan buy the vege and the steamboat ingredient..the weather was super duper hot ! driving ppl to mad!

I had a very full schedule for chu er.
morning gamble,then afternoon go w.chee's house bai nian then gamble at there also..haha,we all are gamble kaki..As the result, i win quite a lot for that day..HAppy^^

Then night time we went to T.I for yamcha,this time round we went to 魔力点子，bcuz the oldtown and mc.donald were full of ppl.. Our yamcha time is almost spent on taking photo..hahaha

                                                                        selca :)

group photo^^

                                                                the girls ~
Then for chu san , just a simply gathering with man yee and shen yin at shen yin's hs. We also had steamboat for our dinner haha .Nice and feel comfortable to have 3 person steamboat. ps: her parent was not at home.

then for chu shi, i went to my aunty's hs bai nian and collect ang pau...hehe
For the following days were getting boring,because everyone went back to KL for work..so Sad :(

AND i still do not have my study mood back,Cham lo...